Friday, March 13, 2009

I just read a sad blog...

While I was scouring a friends blog today, I came across a very sad story of a family that had just lost their baby due to a heart defect. I read the blog, and literally cried, through out the whole thing.... I am not normally one who is full of emotion, and cries when sad stories are read, but this one really touched my heart and got me thinking about my own life.

As of recently, I have had a hard time, trying to decide on which religion is the one me, and for our family. I grew up LDS, and Ben grew up Lutheran, I believe. It's been very hard to talk about religion with anyone, let alone figure out what I, myself, believe. I think what made me cry the most about this story, is that the family had such strong beliefs in their religion, and know that they are going to be a family once again in Heaven. I wish, that I only had as strong of beliefs as them, and knew for myself, that there is life after this life. I honestly don't know how I would react, or how I would handle anyone close to me dying.

I am at a loss for words, I just want so badly to know what is true, and to know that this life is not the end. I have a hard time actually going to church, any church, because I have doubt, and I don't trust myself enough to believe. I want for my family to be together forever, and it makes me cry to think that there may be an end to this life...

Any insight would be greatly appreciated....

3 comments:

Dickerson Family said...

What a terrible thing that they had to go through! Even with their beliefs.

I grew up LDS as well. I personally have received my own inspiration and I KNOW that everything about the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true.

The best way for you to know for yourself what is true, is to go to church, read the scriptures, and pray to know. By doing these things, the Lord will let you know in your heart if they are true. Talk with missionaries and members of the church or churches you are investigating. They will be able to answer any and all questions that you have. Then pray again to know if what they said is correct. You are not alone. Trust in the Lord.

Mom said...

That is so sad. I have seen families lose their babies and little children. Losing a loved one is so hard to endure. If a person did not have the faith they would be together again, I don't know how you could carry on. I just read your friend's message and I know that what she said is true. Terah, I love you. If I could give you my testimony, I would. But it is something you have to receive for yourself. Just review your life. Look at the many blessings you have received through prayer and even blessings. Oh you have been so blessed. Think of what your life would be if you had not been blessed and the outcome different. Just the thoughts that you are having now is your opportunity to refocus on our Heavenly Father's plan for you. You have the knowledge. You know what you need to do. I am blessed because you are my daughter. I love you so very very much. You need not look far. Have desire Terah to know. You have begun.
I love you more than my words can say.

Christy said...

Oh what a horrible thing to go through, I can't imagine nor do I want to know how that feels! What a nightmare to go through that. Your mom said it so well and your friend about the church, that I don't know what else to say other than I know the church is true also.
I am a teacher in the primary and today I had sharing time so I had to do a lesson for all the kids. Well I really wanted to share a personally story to them of something that happened to me that pertained to the lesson. I couldn't think of anything for days(I guess once you get our age it's just harder to remember things that happened as a kid unless they were written down!)Anyway so I racked my brain trying to think of a story to share with them and came up with nothing. Last night I asked Heavenly Father to help me remember a story, and I woke up at 3:30 am and the first thing that came to my mind was a story!! I know he answers prayers. He has answered my prayers countless times sometimes I don't even realize I have gotten my answer till months later, but he always does. I have a strong testimony of that. I hope you can find the truth for yourself as well.